Nature's cruel joke!

We had Thanksgiving at my aunt's house this year. The day before Thanksgiving day I had the revelation that I need to lose weight. So I made sure not to eat too much at meal time, but there was SOOOO much good food! So I figured what I could do is only eat as much as I was hungry, then bring as much food home as I wanted, that I could enjoy the rest of the week. At the end of the day I had 2 to go plates. One filled with turkey, and the other filled with pie.
Today is my 20th birthday. Yesterday my friend bought me a mini birthday cake. As I drove home I had the thought on my mind,of how exciting it was that I had bunches of goodies at home. I was gonna have my turkey with noodles, and finish off with a tiny bit of pie and cake. However, I was looking forward more to eating the pie, and thinking I may just save the cake for another day.
I got home and opened the fridge door. My plates were gone!
I went to my brother's room and my plate laid on his bed, empty. Where is it?! Nick said he asked my mom where they came from and she said she didn't know. He asked if he could eat it and she said go ahead.(This is what Nick said any way)
I asked him what happened to the other plate with the pie and he said he didn't know; that he had left it on the counter.
I went out to Mom and asked what happened to the pie. "Oh I was really hungry when I got home. Some one left it out on the counter, so I thought it was being thrown out, so I ate it. It was so good!"

This is a picture of the pie in it's original form

All my evening eating plans were ruined! While boiling over all of it, it suddenly struck me as funny. 5 days ago I said I need to start eating better, and exercising more. Then, people went and ate all my junk food for me. Well almost all, I still have my cake.

So maybe it was nature playing a cruel joke on me. Or maybe...............................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

How it feels being fat the 2nd time around

This time last year I was setting new year's resolution. I was at 190 and wanted to get down to 160. I wrote a few blogs about it, but kept getting bigger. Now, almost a year later, I am 210... yes, 2 freaking 10! Only 5lbs lighter than I've ever been.My BMI is 29.7, that's only 0.3 below the obese line. In 2005-2006 I went from 215 to 170 and maintained it for a year and a half, then it slowly started creeping back. Now it is all back. The only difference is that I hate it even more the second time around. I have always been a big girl, I never really knew what it felt like to be skinny until I lost the weight. Now that it is back I notice it a lot more and it makes me miserable. It feels like I wanna just shove the fat off me. Like it feels when some one grabs onto your arm. It gets annoying and you want to pull their hand off. I go to sit in my car, and I think I sat on top of a sweater or something. I go to pull it out and all I get is my butt. I lay on my back in bed, and something under my chin is causing annoying pressure. I try to grab at it to stop, and all I do is pull at my chin. When I let go it does it again. Finally the weight of my chin on my throat get so annoying, I end up turning over and sleeping on my side.
I had all these things the 1st time around, but I never noticed because it had always been there. Now I am miserable, feeling and noticing it all. I made a video of me and my friends at the mall. I saw my back side and thought I looked a lot like an older woman I know. Then I realized, "Oh crap, my back side looks like a 60 yr old mother of 5." I am only about to hit 20, I shouldn't look and feel this old! I've gotta lose this. I gotta get this annoying flab off of me.