How could you do this to me?!

A poem I wrote on the 2nd anniversary of my coming to Christ. July 15, 2007

I wandered about, thinking everything was fine.

I wandered about, thinking I was happy, acting as though I had no pain.

It wasn’t until one day, after many years of tears, that my eyes were opened. You took away my fears.

I had a bleeding body and a broken heart; you healed them both.

You gave me a new laugh, a real laugh.

You gave me peace. You showed me how to love, by first loving me.

I laid in bed at night fearing, how was I to make it through tomorrow?

Then you came. You gave me a tomorrow, the next day, and the day after that. You not only gave me a tomorrow, you gave me a future.

I lay awake for hours thinking of how fantastic my future will be, instead of how terrible my tomorrow is.

I just don’t get it, it completely baffles me. I shouted I hate you, I swore I would never come back.

Yet when I did you accepted me. You forgave me and you healed me.

I will never be the same because of you!

Now I ask how, how could you do this to me?
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Thank you!